It's been a long time since I wrote in Mom's blog. I sent Mother's Day cards to all my fill-in mothers- Adri, Margaret, Grandmother and Rachel, but I think the real Happy MOther's Day belongs here to my eternal, loving real Mother.
Mom,
I've looked at you in a whole new perspective ever since having Meriden. The pregnancy, the birth, and thinking about you and Rachel together all the time just like Meriden and I are together all the time. I was expecting to miss you all over again having a baby without you here to help me, counsel me, and console all my fears of motherhood. I was wrong. I have felt your presence more since having Meriden than ever before.
When Meriden was just a brand new born baby, she would stare into nothing. The same spot, nothing. She was so at peace and calm and staring again, into nothing. At first I was jealous of the nothing, I wanted her to look at me! But then, after time I realized she wasn't looking at 'nothing' she was looking at you. I know in my heart that you were there with me when my baby was so close to the other side of the veil. Maybe you couldn't say words like, 'make sure you wrap her up warm tonight' or 'if your milk hasn't come in, use a little formula to satisfy her hunger'. But in my heart and my soul, i felt 'you will do much good in raising this baby'. 'Heavenly Father has trusted you with a choice spirit of his children'... and other such things. THank you for being there for me when I needed you. I'm grateful my baby was there to recognize your presence (since I'm sure she knows you from heaven) so that I could pause and do the same. Happy Mother's Day Mom! I love you!
Love,
Cherise
Mom,
I've looked at you in a whole new perspective ever since having Meriden. The pregnancy, the birth, and thinking about you and Rachel together all the time just like Meriden and I are together all the time. I was expecting to miss you all over again having a baby without you here to help me, counsel me, and console all my fears of motherhood. I was wrong. I have felt your presence more since having Meriden than ever before.
When Meriden was just a brand new born baby, she would stare into nothing. The same spot, nothing. She was so at peace and calm and staring again, into nothing. At first I was jealous of the nothing, I wanted her to look at me! But then, after time I realized she wasn't looking at 'nothing' she was looking at you. I know in my heart that you were there with me when my baby was so close to the other side of the veil. Maybe you couldn't say words like, 'make sure you wrap her up warm tonight' or 'if your milk hasn't come in, use a little formula to satisfy her hunger'. But in my heart and my soul, i felt 'you will do much good in raising this baby'. 'Heavenly Father has trusted you with a choice spirit of his children'... and other such things. THank you for being there for me when I needed you. I'm grateful my baby was there to recognize your presence (since I'm sure she knows you from heaven) so that I could pause and do the same. Happy Mother's Day Mom! I love you!
Love,
Cherise
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